Random

I noticed I hadn't blogged in a longtime and I just wanted to write some random thoughts. My husband and I are loving each other like never before and relatingto each other on a deeper level, it is so awesome. I have been doing a new position at work that is setting me up for promotion and not in the area that I thought. I have been having more creative ideas than I thought was possible because I don't see myself as creative, but Yahweh is showing me I am wrong. I am reconnecting with one of my family members tha I have been estranged from and it started with prayer how great is that. My grandmother asked me to come over and lay hands on her, this is tremendous. I am in awe of the way that Yahweh is turning all of my situations around, this is definetely my New Season!!!!

Nominate Yourself

Let me first say I am not political at all and do not pretend to be. It's about 1:00am and I just finished listening to a message by my pastor, Creflo Dollar and it makes so much sense. We as believers are actually the world changers not who is placed in the White House. Please watch!!!http://wcci.edgeboss.net/wmedia/wcci/archives/daily/2008/october_20_2008_why_pray_vod_300k.wmv

Viva Las Vegas

I have been away for a week celebrating my five year anniversary with hubbie. We had a great time in Vegas. I ate way too much at the buffets, it was ridiculous. I will be going straight to the gym in the morning. We went to see one of the Cir de Soleil shows it was awesome. We walked the strip every night and did some shopping. The strip is absolutely beautiful and the hotels are very elaborate. I would definetely go back again but with a plan and a room that has a full kitchen so we can cook and not eat out for every meal. These five years have went by really quickly and I have some great memories already. I look forward to making more and seeing what the future holds.

Ask, Listen, and Obey

Today started out as a regular day but I found myself upset in the morning. I was wondering why is it I have started eating poorly again. I also have let other things fall by the waist side such as cleaning, prayer time, reading time and just not being productive. I realized today that the enemy really battles you for your time and while going to the park or watching HGTV or just sitting on the couch or on the computer may not be bad for you is it beneficial when you have neglected the Word. When I was on my way home today I wanted to go to the park and had every intention of doing so. I then stopped and said Lord do you want me to go to the park, whatever you tell me to do I will. When I got off the train he said go home, so I did. I watched an episode of Army Wives and then I turned off the TV to read the word. I had been reading for a while when a friend called me about a situation. I listened and then the Lord began to speak through me for my friend. This brought excitement, peace and comfort to my friend. It reminded me of this past Saturday at Women's Fellowship when I heard Irma Diaz speak and she was talking about living in the moment and obeying Yahweh in that moment. People need us to be obedient to the word because they are hurting and the word says in Isaiah 50:4 "the Lord has given me the tongue of the learned that I should know how to speak a word in season to him who is weary. " My goodness what if I had went to the park!!!!!!

For my girls

Today I had a great meeting with my girlfriends and I left with my heart full of love. It is so amazing to me how Yahweh puts people together that are totally different in the natural but can meet in the spirit and be on one accord. I love these women and I thank Yahweh for them. I treasure them and I look forward to sharing life experiences together. This is just for my girls.

It's okay to cry

Well yesterday was an emotional day for me, Mike and I went through some personal issues and I found myself creating an arguement to get some attention. Now you may find this kind of crazy but it really isn't. If you have ever been in a relationship you know there are things that are considered touchy subjects, well that's where we were. His reaction to this subject just does not bring about a desired result and because of that we do not talk about it even though I have feelings also. I don't want to bring it up because then it makes for a long day, however I have been just thinking about it for months and now on the day we are suppose to do something about it I can't take it anymore and I start off with a well I need you emotionally today and he is like what are you implying. To make a long story short I am implying because he is hanging out later after I am in bed that he is not being sensitive to the situation we are going through right at that moment. What I really needed was to cry and I mean one of those cries that all you want to do afterward is go to sleep because you have a headache and your eyes are so tired. I am sharing this because I think of myself as strong but there are times that I just want to be held and cry in my husband''s arms no matter what he may be thinking or how it makes him feel. I realize that you have to say some things that may be uncomfortable for each other to hear but it is worth it. I can not be growing up in the things of Yahweh and shrinking back from the things right in my face because I do not want to make things bad if we are having a good day. When we took those vows it said for better or for worse and if your having a for worse day just express yourself with honey on your tongue. I am giving myself permisson to ask to be weak on certain days, share my heart and then cry. I started the arguement, I got to the root of the problem, explained myself, and then proceeded to cry for about a good 15 min . My husband just took me and cradled me in his arms and rubbed my back and kissed my cheeks and didn't say a word. I want to cry again just thinking about it. It was such a break through for me and we proceeded to take care of our personal matter for the day and there was a barrier forever broken. I am not a wimp just a woman who needs to cry sometimes with the support of her husband and that's OKAY!!!!!

My Dreams and My Focus

I did not realize it had been so long since I last blogged well here I am. I realized something over the last couple of days I have dreams and I want to realize them however have I let them come out of my mind. As you know I love clothing and everything about it. I would love to dress the whole world if I could, I love to see people looking their best. Now what have I done about it, I have taken a couple of friends shopping, gave advice, had a workshop at a Women's Shelter, and figured out the name of the company. I wonder why you get motivated about something that your passionate about and then it seems to fade.

I have also realized that Yahweh has placed me on the security team at my church to effect certain changes. He has also showed me that I would be close to the pastor's wife and would be traveling with them. These things are beginning to happen and I am very excited and at the same time thinking of what I should be doing next.

My marriage has grown tremendously this year I am beginning to see the prayers that I have prayed come to pass in a mighty way. My husband and I are on on accord with many things that are taking place in our lives and this just thrills me. He has become sweeter as the days go on and Yahshua has broken down that middle wall of separation and he has definetely brought peace to my home. We are now focused on having a family and the intimacy has gone to a new level between us. I feel like a teenager again.

I write all this to say my dreams are to walk out being an effective instrument in the body of Christ, an image/style consultant, an executive security agent, a teen mentor and role model for all women, a mother, a great wife, and a personal trainer.

I also want to be fluent in Spanish, learn Sign language, take Salsa lessons, run a 5k marathon and start bike riding.

I desire life and that more abundantly just as Yahshua promised however that first step in some things just seems hard sometimes and then when you take it you think now what. The answer is really simple, go back to the word and see what Yahweh has to say about it. These things may seem right to me to want to accomplish however I don't make the decisions I follow the directions given. Seek ye first the kingdom, acknowledge him in all your ways, meditate on the word day and night, attend to his words, he always causes us to triumph. Sometimes the best way to take the next step is to focus on what got you there in the first place. The things I would like to do in this life come second to Yahweh's will for me in this life. I am focused and willing to learn my destiny one step of faith at a time and being patient in between steps.