This Morning

I woke up this morning and thought I am going to blog today. Yesterday my husband and I were cleaning out the linen closet and I found my "lost" marriage license and a journal from 2004. Before I went to bed I read some of the entries and I was amazed to see how much I had grown and also how some issues still exist in 2008. Back then I was begging Yahweh for things and not standing in faith at all because I asked for the same thing everyday. I would start off with praising Yahweh and then the laundry list of things, and what amazed me was that I prayed for the same thing just in different words. I also started each sentence with Father please and these great declarations of faith only to come back to them again. What was even more funny is that these were actually prayers that I was writing out that would be two to three pages everyday and I never once opened my mouth. This book is full of prayers that were never spoken out.
It now brings the word to my mind that tells you, you have what you say, you have not because you ask not, say to the mountain be thou removed and cast into the sea, the power of life and death is in the tongue.
Oh!! but this morning I praise Yahweh that this way of thinking and praying does not exist anymore. I will not keep my mouth shut ever again, I will have what I say and I am in faith to believe for his super on my natural. I thank Yahweh and my great friend Karla for helping me to grow up. This morning I say I am blessed to be a blessing, Abraham's blessings are mine, I am redeemed from the curse, I have more than enough to meet other people's needs and I am usable and valuable to the kingdom of Yahweh. I am unstoppable and this morning I declare that I have been anointed to preach the gospel to all the world. That prayer writer is gone, celebrate with me on being a PRAYER WARRIOR that has on her full armor and knows how to use her weapons.

I have settled some things

I believe that the word of Yahweh is true and I am anchored in his promises. I have a covenant with him that he swore by himself because he could swear by no one greater. His promises were true before I knew that I even needed them. He does not change!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I have laid hold of what belongs to me. If he promised it to Abraham: ME TOO!!!!!!! What ever the promise is: ME TOO because I am in the body of Christ.

7 Things about me

I have been tagged by my great friend Rachael to tell 7 random facts about myself well here they are, you might be surprised.

1. I have 4 ear holes in each ear and I use to wear 4 pair of bamboo earrings from big to small and I had a gold tooth with an eygptian head on it
2. I use to do the human beatbox in the lunch room in junior high school and was very good at it.
3. I was the captain of the volleyball and softball team in highschool and I was also on the honor roll my junior and senior year
4. My cousins and I use to perform dances we made up at block parties and talent shows
5. I have been living on my own since I was 17
6. A brazilian wax is mandatory in the summer
7. I love hot apple pie with caramel sauce and a scoop of vanilla icecream(breyers)

You knew I would have to end this with food :)

Growing Up

Well yesterday I had a discussion with my husband and it actually went very well I talked to Yahweh about some things and received clarity and a specific answer to prayer. I came in told him I wanted to talk laid everything out on the table and was at complete peace. The old me would have started to cry and make the discussion emotional to really drive my point home. Also try to manipulate the situation to make him see how bad he has hurt me. Throw a pity party for myself and drag him into it. I am happy to report not only did I not use this tactic, I ended the conversation with a sweet spirit and went to bed. Yahweh woke me up about 4am to start praying and I did just that with such a sense of peace,joy and confidence. My day has been great and I am excited to see what will happen next with my grown up self!!!!!!!!

Money and Understanding

Yesterday my husband and I had a very interesting conversation. It is that conversation that you seem to have all the time. What should we do with the money we make?? One answer is to save the other is after everything is paid, spend whatever you want. Sort of seems like the same answer but it is not. The frustration that comes with the topic makes it one that is avoided usually at all costs. Can a happy medium be reached? There is pain involved in trying to get the other person to understand you. Sometimes you are left looking at this person that you love and committed your whole life to being with and saying do you know me at all.
Are you really looking at me, do you see me, I am that same woman you married . It is funny how the characteristics that define who you are begin to get compartmentalized. I like your sense of humor but I could do without all the religious stuff. I like the way you care about people you are so giving but don't give all your money away etc....Then comes my part of well if you would just wash your entire mind from all these worldly mind sets then everything would be alright and we wouldn't have the need for all this frustration. It is like having a stalemate in chess, nobody moves and the game never ends. So then I settle myself and I go to my final authority.
I turn to the word of God and see what he has to say about the situation. The word of God says in all your getting get understanding. If any of you lack wisdom ask for it. What Yahweh has joined together let no man separate and that includes the people involved. Yahshua himself is our peace and has destroyed the barrier, the dividing wall of hostility and made the two one. It is my responsibility as a wife to love my husband no matter what I feel like at the moment or the next couple of moments. I have to employ the power twins FAITH AND PATIENCE. I have to honor him even when I want to do otherwise. I am growing up and that comes with a lot of purging and pruning and keeping my mouth shut. I give Yahweh all the glory because it is more important for me to please him then to get in the last word. So even after an uncomfortable late night of heated fellowship, I can kiss my husband this morning and remember that Yahshua has given me peace and the Holy Spirit as my comforter.