Random

I noticed I hadn't blogged in a longtime and I just wanted to write some random thoughts. My husband and I are loving each other like never before and relatingto each other on a deeper level, it is so awesome. I have been doing a new position at work that is setting me up for promotion and not in the area that I thought. I have been having more creative ideas than I thought was possible because I don't see myself as creative, but Yahweh is showing me I am wrong. I am reconnecting with one of my family members tha I have been estranged from and it started with prayer how great is that. My grandmother asked me to come over and lay hands on her, this is tremendous. I am in awe of the way that Yahweh is turning all of my situations around, this is definetely my New Season!!!!

Nominate Yourself

Let me first say I am not political at all and do not pretend to be. It's about 1:00am and I just finished listening to a message by my pastor, Creflo Dollar and it makes so much sense. We as believers are actually the world changers not who is placed in the White House. Please watch!!!http://wcci.edgeboss.net/wmedia/wcci/archives/daily/2008/october_20_2008_why_pray_vod_300k.wmv

Viva Las Vegas

I have been away for a week celebrating my five year anniversary with hubbie. We had a great time in Vegas. I ate way too much at the buffets, it was ridiculous. I will be going straight to the gym in the morning. We went to see one of the Cir de Soleil shows it was awesome. We walked the strip every night and did some shopping. The strip is absolutely beautiful and the hotels are very elaborate. I would definetely go back again but with a plan and a room that has a full kitchen so we can cook and not eat out for every meal. These five years have went by really quickly and I have some great memories already. I look forward to making more and seeing what the future holds.

Ask, Listen, and Obey

Today started out as a regular day but I found myself upset in the morning. I was wondering why is it I have started eating poorly again. I also have let other things fall by the waist side such as cleaning, prayer time, reading time and just not being productive. I realized today that the enemy really battles you for your time and while going to the park or watching HGTV or just sitting on the couch or on the computer may not be bad for you is it beneficial when you have neglected the Word. When I was on my way home today I wanted to go to the park and had every intention of doing so. I then stopped and said Lord do you want me to go to the park, whatever you tell me to do I will. When I got off the train he said go home, so I did. I watched an episode of Army Wives and then I turned off the TV to read the word. I had been reading for a while when a friend called me about a situation. I listened and then the Lord began to speak through me for my friend. This brought excitement, peace and comfort to my friend. It reminded me of this past Saturday at Women's Fellowship when I heard Irma Diaz speak and she was talking about living in the moment and obeying Yahweh in that moment. People need us to be obedient to the word because they are hurting and the word says in Isaiah 50:4 "the Lord has given me the tongue of the learned that I should know how to speak a word in season to him who is weary. " My goodness what if I had went to the park!!!!!!

For my girls

Today I had a great meeting with my girlfriends and I left with my heart full of love. It is so amazing to me how Yahweh puts people together that are totally different in the natural but can meet in the spirit and be on one accord. I love these women and I thank Yahweh for them. I treasure them and I look forward to sharing life experiences together. This is just for my girls.

It's okay to cry

Well yesterday was an emotional day for me, Mike and I went through some personal issues and I found myself creating an arguement to get some attention. Now you may find this kind of crazy but it really isn't. If you have ever been in a relationship you know there are things that are considered touchy subjects, well that's where we were. His reaction to this subject just does not bring about a desired result and because of that we do not talk about it even though I have feelings also. I don't want to bring it up because then it makes for a long day, however I have been just thinking about it for months and now on the day we are suppose to do something about it I can't take it anymore and I start off with a well I need you emotionally today and he is like what are you implying. To make a long story short I am implying because he is hanging out later after I am in bed that he is not being sensitive to the situation we are going through right at that moment. What I really needed was to cry and I mean one of those cries that all you want to do afterward is go to sleep because you have a headache and your eyes are so tired. I am sharing this because I think of myself as strong but there are times that I just want to be held and cry in my husband''s arms no matter what he may be thinking or how it makes him feel. I realize that you have to say some things that may be uncomfortable for each other to hear but it is worth it. I can not be growing up in the things of Yahweh and shrinking back from the things right in my face because I do not want to make things bad if we are having a good day. When we took those vows it said for better or for worse and if your having a for worse day just express yourself with honey on your tongue. I am giving myself permisson to ask to be weak on certain days, share my heart and then cry. I started the arguement, I got to the root of the problem, explained myself, and then proceeded to cry for about a good 15 min . My husband just took me and cradled me in his arms and rubbed my back and kissed my cheeks and didn't say a word. I want to cry again just thinking about it. It was such a break through for me and we proceeded to take care of our personal matter for the day and there was a barrier forever broken. I am not a wimp just a woman who needs to cry sometimes with the support of her husband and that's OKAY!!!!!

My Dreams and My Focus

I did not realize it had been so long since I last blogged well here I am. I realized something over the last couple of days I have dreams and I want to realize them however have I let them come out of my mind. As you know I love clothing and everything about it. I would love to dress the whole world if I could, I love to see people looking their best. Now what have I done about it, I have taken a couple of friends shopping, gave advice, had a workshop at a Women's Shelter, and figured out the name of the company. I wonder why you get motivated about something that your passionate about and then it seems to fade.

I have also realized that Yahweh has placed me on the security team at my church to effect certain changes. He has also showed me that I would be close to the pastor's wife and would be traveling with them. These things are beginning to happen and I am very excited and at the same time thinking of what I should be doing next.

My marriage has grown tremendously this year I am beginning to see the prayers that I have prayed come to pass in a mighty way. My husband and I are on on accord with many things that are taking place in our lives and this just thrills me. He has become sweeter as the days go on and Yahshua has broken down that middle wall of separation and he has definetely brought peace to my home. We are now focused on having a family and the intimacy has gone to a new level between us. I feel like a teenager again.

I write all this to say my dreams are to walk out being an effective instrument in the body of Christ, an image/style consultant, an executive security agent, a teen mentor and role model for all women, a mother, a great wife, and a personal trainer.

I also want to be fluent in Spanish, learn Sign language, take Salsa lessons, run a 5k marathon and start bike riding.

I desire life and that more abundantly just as Yahshua promised however that first step in some things just seems hard sometimes and then when you take it you think now what. The answer is really simple, go back to the word and see what Yahweh has to say about it. These things may seem right to me to want to accomplish however I don't make the decisions I follow the directions given. Seek ye first the kingdom, acknowledge him in all your ways, meditate on the word day and night, attend to his words, he always causes us to triumph. Sometimes the best way to take the next step is to focus on what got you there in the first place. The things I would like to do in this life come second to Yahweh's will for me in this life. I am focused and willing to learn my destiny one step of faith at a time and being patient in between steps.

None

I just wanted to write something today not even sure what but I just had the urge to blog. I have been noticing things around me seem to be moving in slow motion and it is really weird. It is almost funny because it seems impossible to live in NYC and be slow. However I am beginning to appreciate quiet time and actually requiring it throughout the day. I believe that I am learning how to be still and know that Yahweh is working on my behalf at all times. Casting your cares not a new concept but one that I am operating in to another level. I just don't have any worries and that seems to worry me, how silly is that. You can be so conditioned to being busy and trying to figure out everything for the next month that you can't enjoy today. Well I am going to enjoy today and the next day and the rest of the week. Calm and at rest that is what I am.

Cleaning the House

This post is exactly what the title says, I am having a little bit of a challenge cleaning the house. Lately I have been working longer hours and then when I get home I just want to rest. In the meantime it seems as if clutter is just sneaking into my house. I really need help, I do not like to have cluttered space and I also don't like to spend all my time doing it. By the way it is 8:40am and I got up really motivated to clean so far I have signed up for a class, read my friends blogs and now I am posting a blog. So much for cleaning, I need a system to keep the house clean and a husband that thinks that cleaning is a priority not an option. I am a little overwhelmed because I want the entire apartment clean now and the way I like it which would take me about 6-7 hours of non-stop cleaning to get it just right. Who has that kind of time? Okay, the bell has sounded and I am ready for round 1. (good Lord I hope this fight doesn't go all 12 rounds) Pray for me!!!

Just do the Word

I don't have much to say, the title of this blog says it all. I have been meditating on the word all week, and I had to ask myself and you IS THE WORD YOUR FINAL AUTHORITY? If it is then DON'T COMPROMISE even a little bit, what ever your opinion is if the word says otherwise, CHANGE IT. No matter where you are in your faith walk if you know better then it is your responsibility to do better. Hear the word; Apply the word; Read the word; Obey the word. Yahweh has made it simple, tell your flesh to back off!!!!!!!!

Adjustments

I just came from seeing a friend that I have not seen in 6 years and you want to know the first thing I noticed, nothing has changed in her life. This brought me to such a place of grief because I now can see very clearly how life plays out without Yahweh in it. I did my best to talk to her however she has chosen for now to remain the same. I stayed up late last night just thinking while she was sleeping and wondering if she would ever let Yahweh in. This then brought me to a conclusion about myself because when we were talking I had her repeat herself a few times because I did not hear what she had said and she made the comment" Have you gotten deaf in your old age and I replied no you are not speaking loud enough". So this comment keeps playing in my head because for those of you who didn't know in May 2006 the doctor told me I have otoscoleosis which has caused 30% hearing loss in one ear and 35% in the other.

What Yahweh was showing me is that I have made adjustments for this disease. Some of the adjustments are: turning up the TV, asking if the person can repeat, just smiling or laughing when I don't hear what was said, or telling the person you don't realize how low you are speaking. Also, it's not a problem until a comment is made and then I give an excuse and resume normal. How is it that I have a promise of healing and divine health and I find myself not choosing this but the subtle deception of adjustments.

I have advanced in my spiritual life by leaps and bounds this year and yet this hearing problem has been going on for 2yrs. I have been at this place before where I get angry and begin confessing the word and crying out to Yah and praying however this lasts for a couple of weeks or maybe a month and then I let up and adjustments comes right back in. I have a title deed to my healing in the word and yet my house is empty, I have yet to occupy this space. If it is in the word then that means it exists somewhere and it is my job to have the angels bring it to me. I realize that the more I confess the word and plant the word in my heart and send the angels out; they then begin to build a bridge between the spirit and the physical realm. When the bridge is complete then your promise walks across that bridge from the spirit to the natural and manifestation has just taken place.

I declare that this is the last time I am going to be in this place of subtle deception, I am now going to make an adjustment in the spirit and get aggressive about what belongs to me. I am building my bridge and expecting healing to walk over, In the name of my Healer Yahshua ha Moshiach!!!!

The Retreat

There is so much I could say about the retreat, it was absolutely the most spirit-filled couple of days I have ever experienced in my life thus far. The Holy Spirit showed up in all power and the level of obedience on our part was prompt. I love all of my girls, they are truly my friends. You don't get to say that about a lot of people but I can say that about these 5. We accomplished exactly what we set out to accomplish and Yahweh straightened some crooked paths. He provided us with answers that we desparately needed and also left us with some more questions:). I am so grateful for this weekend it allowed me to see a glimpse of what Yahweh has for POC and our own individual lives. I am still resting in his presence and what an awesome place to be. This is where healing, revelation, deliverance, and new beginnings take place. I will never be the same again and that's a great thing!!!!!

Expectancy of this Weekend

This weekend will be the first POC retreat and I am so excited about it. It is 6 of us all together that make up POC. Yahweh has blessed me by putting 5 wonderful women in my life. We will get to spend some time together praying, playing and developing our vision. We are a unique group of women, with different giftings but one common goal and that is to serve Yahweh in spirit and in truth. He creates the vision and we just walk it out. It is an awesome way to live your life knowing you are in the will of Yah and your steps are being ordered daily. I believe Yahweh has planned something marvelous for this weekend above anything we could ask or even think. I know when we return we will all be changed and we will have graduated to a new level in the Holy Spirit and in faith. Until I return................

Workshop at a Homeless Shelter

On Thursday of last week I had an opportunity given by a great woman of Yahweh Ms. Diva to speak at a homeless shelter for women about inner/outer image. I was kind of nervous at first because it seemed as if every time I tried to prepare for the workshop the Holy Spirit would not let me. I got out my notebook and I felt the Lord saying not now. So I went there with some notes I had written a long time ago when I was preparing for this kind of opportunity. I got there and Yahweh just filled my mouth with the words to speak. I didn't even look at my notes.

The women were very interactive and they seemed to really get it when I told them that whatever they feel on the inside reflects the outside and they have to change the inner image of who they are and get a picture of who and where they want to be and focus on that. I also told them if that can't see it then they will never SEE it. Everything comes from your spirit when you physically see it that is because the blue print was already drawn on the inside and then the image was built on the outside. Your hope is the blue print and faith is the builder. If you have no hope faith can't fill it.

I believe the women went away with an understanding that you are not your circumstance or your situation because that is what can be seen, it is what you are trying to birth on the inside of you that is what you are. I likened it to being pregnant you don't know how Yahweh gets all the molecules and things inside your body to operate and form this little person, but you know your pregnant. Your imagination starts to take hold and you are convinced your having a baby, so the same is for everything in your life when you get pregnant with it you have to give birth to it and no one can convince you otherwise. Yahweh has impregnated all of us with something and if we take or vitamins and do the right thing(read the word and listen for instruction) your baby will be born.

For the outer image I gave them a lot of great fashion tips and personal tips like always keep your nails clean and filed, clear polish would be a plus. Also never wear white underwear under white pants, white is never the same shade. They really identified with the nails and about three stories were told about that one involving a lady being caught in a credit card scam because when she went to pay and the cashier noticed her nails and knew she didn't have the money she was spending and called the cops and the lady was arrested. Another was an undercover cop posing as a homeless man and the people noticed he wasn't homeless because his nails were clean. We had great laughs and information was well received.

I believe I received instuction about my image consulting business, it will not be geared toward adults. Yahweh has shown me that it will be a image and style consulting firm that will go to the schools and hold workshops for highschool and college age girls, to help them with their inner image. He has also shown me that I will be a mentor to these girls and young women and they wil come to me for prayer. These workshops will sought after by other schools and states. At the POC Academy this will be a mandatory class for the kids and guess what the best part is, Yahweh has shown me my husband teaching the boys!!!!! I am pregnant with this and I will give birth with all of dear friends as the midwives. My hope is drawing the blueprint.

Be Anxious for Nothing

Yesterday was an interesting day, my car decided to stop on me. I received a jump from a guy at my job and then I went to the laundry. Well the car stopped again and I was around the corner from a auto shop so I asked the guy for a jump and he gave it to me and said to bring it around so he could check it out. I did this and he said I needed and alternator and a new battery which would cost me $365.00 installed and he could do it right then, it would only take an hour. I was like great now I have to spend this kind of money and put it on my credit card that I have not used in over a year. I called my husband and couldn't reach him then I called my cousin and my dad, they said get it fixed it sounds like a good price.
I then went over to an auto parts store and found out how much the parts cost and from what the guy told me it would be about the same price. So after I did all this I told the mechanic okay fix my car I will wait. He said now he would have to do it tomorrow. Long story short I took the train home and settled it in myself that I would charge it and then take money from savings and pay it.
When I got to work I felt uneasy so I decided I would take it from the place and use the guy that I usually deal with. I asked the garage foreman at my job to take me to get my car and explained the situation to him. He said it seems like a good price but let me call the guy I deal with, these guys will really take care of you I'll tell them your my sister. So I took it over there and by the end of the day they fixed my car. This is the blessing part, I only needed a new battery, not an alternator and they only charged me $65.00!!!!!! It's like I got the battery for free because their hourly rate is $60.00.
Yahweh is ever taking care of me and he did not allow the enemy to steal from me. He sent me to the right person to receive my blessing. As long as I allow him to order my steps, listen to the prompting of the Holy Spirit and cast my cares on him, He always causes me to prosper.

Yahweh is the Owner, I am the Manager

This is really a revelation to me, let me start from the beginning. Over a year ago I decided that I would not do anymore overtime at my job. I would just trust Yahweh for it and not try to do it in my own strength. Well anytime I would get extra money I would praise Yah and then spend it on something I really wanted and some needs. In February I was reading One Word from God can Change your Life by Kenneth and Gloria Copeland. I was reading the chapter on finance and got a revelation that when you get your harvest don't spend it all on yourself make sure to put some back in the ground. At this time I had extra money and I said you know what Lord from now on any extra money I get I will give you half and spend the other half.

Since November I have had overtime on all of my checks and I don't go looking for the overtime it chases me down. I am asked to take special trips and even regular trips seem to last longer than usual. I have seen an increase like never before. I have shown myself to be a faithful steward. My Pastor has started a series on stewardship and he made such a great point. Yahweh is the owner, we are the managers of his stuff so we should be asking him what he wants us to do with his stuff. Stop thinking you are the owner!! You have to be a faithful steward and Yahweh says in his word who can find one. Remember the parable of the stewards with the five talents. As I write this I have given Yahweh complete control of the decisions I make in my life and like my great friend Neubela said I am soooo free.

Just to testify how the word is true and Yahweh gives seed to the sower since I made my decision I have been able to sow 1,222.00 since the end of February. Working the extra hours is not grievous because I now have extra and I am able to be a blessing to whoever Yahweh chooses. I have been asking him what to do in all things and you know what he answers right away. I say Lord what do you want me to do today, I would like to do xy and z. Then he orders my steps, this is the greatest place to live when you don't have to figure it all out.

I am truly living in the fullness of the BLESSING!!!!!!!!

Some Thoughts

I have been really in a world wind of thoughts lately, my mind has been out there. I am recognizing that Yahweh really had to do a powerful work in me. I thought if my husband would just change and get on the same page as me then everything would be alright. As I have been letting the Holy Spirit guide me in all situations he has been showing how really immature I was. I have officially come off my high horse and realized that I have faults also( who knew). As a person you tend to look at all the things you are doing right and the other person is doing wrong and magnify the wrong and glorify your good. I rarely stopped to glorify the good because after all you would not be with that person if there were not things you loved about them. It is so funny how when you feel like you are being treated unfairly you can not look past the wrong to the good and wheather you know it or not you make some internal decisions that can really hurt your relationship.
I say all this to say that I am a work in progress and so is my husband, I have to be like Yahshua when he said those that have eyes to see let them see. No longer is my focus what I do so well and what he does not so well but that we are on one accord and Yahshua has broken down the middle wall of separation. I am my husband and he is me, we are one. The more I allow the Holy Spirit to lead me and guide me the more he will because we are one. The more I fault find the more he will because we are one. The more I have a great attitude in a not so great situation the more he will because we are one. The more I love him for no other reason than Yah told me to the more he will because we are one. Remember Yah is not mocked WHATSOEVER YOU SOW THAT YOU WILL ALSO REAP!!! The key word is WHATSOEVER............
Perfect love casts out all fear!!! I have purposed in my heart to fearlessly love my husband in all areas and situations. I am committing to living a care-free life, Jesus wants them anyway so he can have them. This revelation has given me freedom and now my focus is on my desired end and following the instructions to get there. I die daily to self because self is selfish. Now Yahweh's agenda is my only agenda, how sweet it is!!!!!!!!!!!!

It has been so long since I have blogged I don't even know where to begin. Well everything in my life is just going great. I have my sisters of POC in my life, relationships are being restored and some severed. I have learned that you really have to guard your heart with due dilligence and sometimes that means from family members. They seem to have the strange notion that if you are saved that is equivalent to being a door mat and you are just suppose to let things pass and not have an opinon. I have encountered that with 2 family members recently and one had the nerve to question my Christianity because I would not allow a certain thing. I just keep them up in prayer and go on about my business. Yahshua was so right when he said who is my mother and father except those that serve the Lord.
Yahweh has really been giving me visions about my house and I already know where it is and I have even been inside of it twice. I love this house and I know it belongs to me. Yahweh has had me decorating it already and added all the things that I want to it. It is a beautiful house and he recently gave me a revelation that I can pray for all the additions and renovations I want done to the house and have the people who live there now fix it up just the way I want it and then turn it over to me. That house is mine and I have already seen myself having my baby shower in the house so that I am declaring that is this year.
At my job the Captain came up to me and personally asked me to start doing the Acting Lieutenant again. I have not been doing it since last September. I know Yah had told me to start doing it again but I just didn't want to go back on a decision I had made so Yah had them come to me so I had no doubt that it was his hand moving in this. Yahweh is promoting me and they have no choice but to line up to his word and his promises to his children.
Church has been going vey well, I interviewed for a security position and I got the call today that I have been chosen to serve on the security team. The Lord is just moving his hand mightily on my behalf.
Oh my gosh I almost forgot last Saturday at church at the end of service I lead a girl into receiving the baptism in the Holy Spirit. I explained everything to her and she said she wanted to receive right then and Yahweh showed up. I was so excited, that was the first time I had done that and the Holy Spirit just helped me and get this the girl had been a member for 2 years!!! She did not have a clear understanding of it and thought it wasn't that important even though at the end of each service there is always an invitation to receive the baptism of the Holy Spirit. She said she had been praying for God to give her clarity and then here I come. I also had been praying for Yahweh to put people in my path that are hungry for his word and want to know him no more people who say that they are Christians but do everything contrary to the word. Both of our prayers were answered, Praise Yahweh!!!
Yesterday I got to fly around in a jet all day long on official business of course:). I believe Yahweh was opening my eyes to the things that he has in store for me and the body of Christ I already see myself chartering a jet and just flying wherever I want to. It was a beautiful experience and I am ready to have my days of heaven on the earth!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Grateful

I am so grateful today that Yahweh continues to bless me and keep me. I am hearing from him more and more on a deeper level everyday. Today was an exciting yet hard day I had to tell my sisters in Christ that I was leaving the church we all go to. I have been pondering this for an entire week and not knowing how they would respond. I still don't know as I am writing this blog but one thing I do know Yahweh is stretching me and forming me into the woman he wants me to become. I love my sisters dearly and have not had such a wonderful group of female friends that serve such a purpose in my life. So right now I just praise Yahweh for his wonderful blessings that he continually places in my life. My husband and I are getting along great, I have had great oppotunities to witness to others and bless others. I realize that this life you live is not just for you but for Yahweh to flow things through you to other people. How great it is to be a connector and a distributor.

My Destiny

Yesterday I was able to take a look into my future and see that it is bright. I took two of my friends shopping and saw a transformation take place right before my eyes. They both listened intently to the things that I told them would work for their body type and lifestyle and image that they wanted to project. My friend Yadi told me the clothes made her feel happy and Rachael actually danced in her new jeans that fit her perfectly. This is what I was put here for, to make women feel great about themselves even if I have to start from the outside in. I am so happy this morning that through the gift that Yahweh has given me I am able to bring his name glory. His children are now dressed in splendor just like Solomon and their appearance commands attention and leaves you thinking.

Favor

I am so excited today I have really laid a hold of Yahweh's blessings and favor has been following me everywhere I go. Just to name a few: I went to get an estimate on how much my car would cost to get fixed and asked if the guy could just pull it out some so that it would not rub against the tire. I had been praying all the way there asking for Yahweh's divine favor and he gave it to me. The mechanic got some device and pulled the side of the car out that was smashed and told me to have a nice day. Later on that week someone brought me breakfast and lunch. I went to the grocery store and the lady told me that my milk was free because I accumulated points. I went shopping and I got to the register and 3 of my items were on sale on item was $20 and rang up $3.43. Praise Yahweh. I went to the verizon store because my phone lost it's charge after I charged it all night. I talked with the tech and he said I needed a new battery and I told them this was the first time this occured could he test the phone. He kept pushing for me to get a new battery, finally I said well how much is the new battery and he said $40. Then he said well I don't have it right now, I would have to order it. He said you know what just take this battery and keep your old battery!!!!! All he asked of me was to fill out a survey and give him the credit:) My Yah shall supply all my needs according to his riches in glory. I am empowered to prosper(blessed) and highly FAVORED!!!!!

Transition

I have been going through such a transition lately, I feel like I am on a merry go round. The days seem to just go by and I am wondering what did I do or accomplish today that is meaningful. I know this is not the case because I have purpose. What really struck me today is that I was suppose to be at bible study and all I could think about was going home and just being in the silence of my home. This is unusual for me because I don't miss a chance to be in church but, what I am realizing is that there needs to be more quiet time in my life. Fellowship is wonderful and I love it but to be really effective I need to spend moretime with Yahweh alone just me and my bible and the silence. I long and crave intimate meetings with Yahweh just to listen and sometimes just to be cradled in his arms. I believe it all boils down to being busy and accomplishing tasks does not satisfy my hunger to be closer to my Father. I just want to praise you Yahweh and give you honor and glory, for you are great, you do miracles so great , their is no one else like you. I could go on but I think this sums it up.

Where is Yah taking me

This Saturday we had a women's fellowship at my church. I spoke about self image and it really overwhelmed me that Yahweh trusted me enough to give a word to his daughters. I was extremely nervous but I got up there and did it anyway. I just had to give Yahweh honor and praise because he is worthy of it and also because he saw fit to use me. Hallelujah!!!!!!!!!

This Morning

I woke up this morning and thought I am going to blog today. Yesterday my husband and I were cleaning out the linen closet and I found my "lost" marriage license and a journal from 2004. Before I went to bed I read some of the entries and I was amazed to see how much I had grown and also how some issues still exist in 2008. Back then I was begging Yahweh for things and not standing in faith at all because I asked for the same thing everyday. I would start off with praising Yahweh and then the laundry list of things, and what amazed me was that I prayed for the same thing just in different words. I also started each sentence with Father please and these great declarations of faith only to come back to them again. What was even more funny is that these were actually prayers that I was writing out that would be two to three pages everyday and I never once opened my mouth. This book is full of prayers that were never spoken out.
It now brings the word to my mind that tells you, you have what you say, you have not because you ask not, say to the mountain be thou removed and cast into the sea, the power of life and death is in the tongue.
Oh!! but this morning I praise Yahweh that this way of thinking and praying does not exist anymore. I will not keep my mouth shut ever again, I will have what I say and I am in faith to believe for his super on my natural. I thank Yahweh and my great friend Karla for helping me to grow up. This morning I say I am blessed to be a blessing, Abraham's blessings are mine, I am redeemed from the curse, I have more than enough to meet other people's needs and I am usable and valuable to the kingdom of Yahweh. I am unstoppable and this morning I declare that I have been anointed to preach the gospel to all the world. That prayer writer is gone, celebrate with me on being a PRAYER WARRIOR that has on her full armor and knows how to use her weapons.

I have settled some things

I believe that the word of Yahweh is true and I am anchored in his promises. I have a covenant with him that he swore by himself because he could swear by no one greater. His promises were true before I knew that I even needed them. He does not change!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I have laid hold of what belongs to me. If he promised it to Abraham: ME TOO!!!!!!! What ever the promise is: ME TOO because I am in the body of Christ.

7 Things about me

I have been tagged by my great friend Rachael to tell 7 random facts about myself well here they are, you might be surprised.

1. I have 4 ear holes in each ear and I use to wear 4 pair of bamboo earrings from big to small and I had a gold tooth with an eygptian head on it
2. I use to do the human beatbox in the lunch room in junior high school and was very good at it.
3. I was the captain of the volleyball and softball team in highschool and I was also on the honor roll my junior and senior year
4. My cousins and I use to perform dances we made up at block parties and talent shows
5. I have been living on my own since I was 17
6. A brazilian wax is mandatory in the summer
7. I love hot apple pie with caramel sauce and a scoop of vanilla icecream(breyers)

You knew I would have to end this with food :)

Growing Up

Well yesterday I had a discussion with my husband and it actually went very well I talked to Yahweh about some things and received clarity and a specific answer to prayer. I came in told him I wanted to talk laid everything out on the table and was at complete peace. The old me would have started to cry and make the discussion emotional to really drive my point home. Also try to manipulate the situation to make him see how bad he has hurt me. Throw a pity party for myself and drag him into it. I am happy to report not only did I not use this tactic, I ended the conversation with a sweet spirit and went to bed. Yahweh woke me up about 4am to start praying and I did just that with such a sense of peace,joy and confidence. My day has been great and I am excited to see what will happen next with my grown up self!!!!!!!!

Money and Understanding

Yesterday my husband and I had a very interesting conversation. It is that conversation that you seem to have all the time. What should we do with the money we make?? One answer is to save the other is after everything is paid, spend whatever you want. Sort of seems like the same answer but it is not. The frustration that comes with the topic makes it one that is avoided usually at all costs. Can a happy medium be reached? There is pain involved in trying to get the other person to understand you. Sometimes you are left looking at this person that you love and committed your whole life to being with and saying do you know me at all.
Are you really looking at me, do you see me, I am that same woman you married . It is funny how the characteristics that define who you are begin to get compartmentalized. I like your sense of humor but I could do without all the religious stuff. I like the way you care about people you are so giving but don't give all your money away etc....Then comes my part of well if you would just wash your entire mind from all these worldly mind sets then everything would be alright and we wouldn't have the need for all this frustration. It is like having a stalemate in chess, nobody moves and the game never ends. So then I settle myself and I go to my final authority.
I turn to the word of God and see what he has to say about the situation. The word of God says in all your getting get understanding. If any of you lack wisdom ask for it. What Yahweh has joined together let no man separate and that includes the people involved. Yahshua himself is our peace and has destroyed the barrier, the dividing wall of hostility and made the two one. It is my responsibility as a wife to love my husband no matter what I feel like at the moment or the next couple of moments. I have to employ the power twins FAITH AND PATIENCE. I have to honor him even when I want to do otherwise. I am growing up and that comes with a lot of purging and pruning and keeping my mouth shut. I give Yahweh all the glory because it is more important for me to please him then to get in the last word. So even after an uncomfortable late night of heated fellowship, I can kiss my husband this morning and remember that Yahshua has given me peace and the Holy Spirit as my comforter.